2018 dawned in classic North Country winter fashion: piercingly clear, blazingly bright, and intensely cold. Mid-morning mercury hovered at negative 22 degrees Fahrenheit. Yikes! Wind chill warnings persist through mid-day, projecting negative 35 degrees Fahrenheit. Dangerously cold!
I’m in no hurry to get out although I will, eventually. I’ll bundle up and brave a brief walk across snowplowed path to check in on three grands next door. But for now, I’m content to linger in leisurely warmth.
Of course, this induces some guilt. I’ve been thinking of the Hubs since my feet hit the floor. Not a lot of good that’s done him, eh? There’s nothing worse than extreme cold on a dairy farm. They’ve been at it for hours, long before dawn broke, another miserably cold day in an exhausting week of subzero temps. I can only hope a batch of French onion soup and crockpot of beef stew are some comfort. Meanwhile, I’m thankful for a quiet morning on the first day of the new year.
Yesterday I attended a new church. Pastor Floyd urged us to take a lesson from ancient King David’s epic example of letting go. As at the story goes, David, God’s elect, layered sin upon sin, including failure in line of duty, adultery and lying. As a result, a good man was murdered, a marriage ruined, and an infant died. Can you imagine what Facebook or Twitter would make of his mess?
Yet when Nathan the prophet called David out on his sin, he repented and got right with God. That doesn’t seem to happen to high profile leaders every day, eh? David was humbled. He accepted responsibility for his actions and accepted God’s authority and discipline. Then he let go of his failure and disappointments to move forward in his calling. It takes a lot of courage to face detractors and haters when you’ve done wrong. Pastor Floyd’s message zeroed in on how David let go by accepting God’s “no.”
Well, I’d never thought of it that way before. I’d only thought what a jerk David had been. How much hurt he’d caused. He seemed to get away with it, more or less. But true enough, on closer inspection, Pastor Floyd was right. David was broken and repentant. Then he resolved to make the best of a big mess. To do so, he had to let it go.
I thought about my own life. There were big wins in 2017, including a precious new grandgirl and adventures abroad with the Hubs, celebrating a milestone anniversary in Cuba and Europe. There were also hardships and difficulties; some disappointments have lingered too long, weighing me down. Taking a lesson from King David, I realize I can’t afford to carry these forward. It’s time to “let go.”
So that is what I’ve resolved to do. I’m letting go of extraneous responsibilities, roles and even a few relationships entwined with my own disappointments or failures to embrace all that 2018 will offer. I’m pressing on in hopes of becoming more fully who I’m called to be. What about you?
I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on … Philippians 3:13-14
Cheers to your bright and beautiful New Year.
~ Rene Morley